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  Table of Contents

  His Heart: Chapter 1

  About This Book

  Blue Eyed Stranger

  Downtown

  Imagining Things

  Runaway

  Because You’re Ivy

  Stalker

  Double Date

  Goodnight, Ivy

  Stranger Than Fiction

  Breakfast

  Puzzles

  View from the Ledge

  Hard Stare

  Broken Glass

  Paintings

  Neighborly Favors

  First

  Mutual Suspicion

  Questions

  Partial

  Unexpected Visits

  We’re in My Office

  Confrontation

  I Explained Everything

  Difficult Truths

  Pictures of Childhood

  Purple Hyacinth

  Hospital

  Pieces of the Puzzle

  The Past

  Brick and Ivy

  Here When You Wake

  Epilogue: I Remembered

  Afterword

  Acknowledgments

  Also by Claire Kingsley

  About the Author

  Remembering Ivy

  Claire Kingsley

  Copyright © 2017 Claire Kingsley

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  This is a work of fiction. Any names, characters, places, or incidents are products of the author’s imagination and used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual people, places, or events is purely coincidental or fictionalized.

  Edited by Elayne Morgan of Serenity Editing Services

  Cover by Cassy Roop of Pink Ink Designs

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  Created with Vellum

  For David

  Because there’s a little bit of you in every story.

  Contents

  About This Book

  1. Blue Eyed Stranger

  2. Downtown

  3. Imagining Things

  4. Runaway

  5. Because You’re Ivy

  6. Stalker

  7. Double Date

  8. Goodnight, Ivy

  9. Stranger Than Fiction

  10. Breakfast

  11. Puzzles

  12. View from the Ledge

  13. Hard Stare

  14. Broken Glass

  15. Paintings

  16. Neighborly Favors

  17. First

  18. Mutual Suspicion

  19. Questions

  20. Partial

  21. Unexpected Visits

  22. We’re in My Office

  23. Confrontation

  24. I Explained Everything

  25. Difficult Truths

  26. Pictures of Childhood

  27. Purple Hyacinth

  28. Hospital

  29. Pieces of the Puzzle

  30. The Past

  31. Brick and Ivy

  32. Here When You Wake

  Epilogue: I Remembered

  His Heart: Chapter 1

  Afterword

  Acknowledgments

  Also by Claire Kingsley

  About the Author

  About This Book

  After putting her life on hold to care for her dying father, Ivy Nichols feels stuck. Alone and disconnected, she’s struggling to pick up the pieces and move forward.

  The mysterious William Cole walks into her life, like a beacon of light in a fog. He’s sensual and captivating—awakening Ivy in ways she’s never experienced before.

  But he knows things about her—deeply personal things—that he shouldn’t. His explanation is impossible, but the alternatives are worse. Her friends insist he’s either a con artist, or he’s crazy.

  With her heart on the line, Ivy has to decide who—and what—she believes. The rational explanation from her trusted friends? Or the impossible story from the man without a past? The man who swears he will do anything to protect her.

  One thing she is sure of—William doesn’t just know facts about her life. He knows her, inside and out. He knows her as intimately as if he’d spent every moment of his life loving her.

  And, according to him, he has.

  Blue Eyed Stranger

  Boredom and loneliness were an unfortunate combination.

  My oversized white German shepherd, Edgar, blinked at me, then huffed out a breath through his black nose. I’d taken him for a walk earlier, and these days he needed a nap to recover. His hips tended to bother him, and we’d had an active morning.

  I looked down at my crossword puzzle, the book laid out flat on my small dining table. It was literary-themed, so it should have been a piece of cake. After all, I was a literature professor. I taught the classics in lecture halls filled with college students. But today, my mind wandered, the allure of puzzle-solving not enough to hold my attention.

  Perhaps it was because I was facing yet another Saturday with no plans. There are certainly times when a long day free from outside obligations is a blessing. But other times, a girl needs a reason to go out. To put on something pretty. Wear those impractical shoes sitting untouched in the closet. Break out the red kiss-me-now lipstick. Maybe for someone who might kiss that lipstick right off.

  It had been a long time since there had been someone to kiss the lipstick off these lips.

  To be fair, I wasn’t sure I owned red lipstick anymore. And the impractical shoes… I probably still had them… somewhere. If I’d had a reason to dig them out of the recesses of my closet, I’m sure I could have found them. But I didn’t.

  “It is a great misfortune to be alone, my friends; and it must be believed that solitude can quickly destroy reason,” I said.

  Edgar raised his head and blinked at me.

  “Jules Verne,” I said. “It means spending too much time alone can make you crazy. I think I’m proof of that, considering I’m quoting The Mysterious Island to my dog.”

  He put his head back on his front paws.

  My phone beeped with a text. It was my best friend, Jessica.

  Jessica: Busy today?

  Me: So busy. This puzzle won’t solve itself.

  Jessica: Peter’s ignoring me. Want to meet for coffee?

  I smiled. Jessica and her husband were great together, but they were polar opposites—the passionate art history teacher and the nerdy math professor. Sometimes Jessica’s social needs exceeded Peter’s ability to keep up with them.

  Me: Sure. Meet you at Café Lit?

  Jessica: Yay!

  “Well, buddy, it looks like Mama has a reason to put on real pants.”

  Edgar ignored me as I got up and went to change out of my favorite comfy gray sweats. I stopped in the bathroom to pull my long hair into a low ponytail. It was just coffee with Jess, so dressing up wasn’t necessary. But I did put on a cute green sweater with my jeans, and slipped on a pair of black flats.

  Café Lit was right across the street from Woodward College, the small private university just north of Seattle where Jessica, Peter, and I all taught. The Lit in the name was supposed to be short for literature. Wood paneling and lots of brown leather gave it an old-fashioned library atmosphere, and there were shelves lined with books you could read while you were there. It was particularly popular with the college staff. Jessica and I met here often, usually in the morning before work. But sometimes we came in on a weekend, especially if she was restless and Peter was absorbed in a project.

  Jessica was already at a table when I arrived, dun
king a tea bag into a mug of steaming hot water. I’d known Jess for years. We’d met as wide-eyed college freshmen and been friends ever since. In some ways, she and I were as opposite as she and her husband. We looked it, at least. Jessica was dark-skinned and curvy, with a gorgeous mass of black curls. I was fair—she joked that I was so pale I was clear—with blue eyes and long blond hair.

  I smiled and waved, then got in line to order. It was busy for a Saturday, although there was still open seating. The woman at the head of the line appeared to be placing an enormous to-go order. She held up a pad of paper and checked things off a list as she spoke to the barista. Glancing at Jess, I shrugged. I’d be in line for a while.

  The man in front of me looked back over his shoulder. “I hope you’re not in a hurry.”

  “Fortunately not,” I said.

  He shifted his feet, so he was partially facing me. “Me neither.”

  My stomach tingled with pings of anxiety. Was he about to flirt with me? Was he just making polite conversation because we were stuck in the same line? He was nice-looking, casually dressed, probably a bit older than me—mid-thirties, perhaps. No sign of a ring. Cute. Definitely cute.

  “Well, you know… There will be little rubs and disappointments everywhere, and we are all apt to expect too much,” I said.

  He raised his eyebrows.

  “Jane Austen, Mansfield Park.” I cleared my throat. “Never mind.”

  “Do you go to school here?” he asked.

  Being one of the youngest teachers at Woodward, I was accustomed to people mistaking me for a student. I tended to compensate by dressing in smart blouses and pencil skirts with practical black pumps. Pearls seemed to help. But today my casual clothes and careless hair probably made me look quite a bit younger than twenty-nine.

  “No, I’m a teacher,” I said.

  “Really?” he asked. “What subject?”

  “Literature.”

  “I guess that explains the Jane Austen reference,” he said.

  “Yeah,” I said. “You know, what’s interesting about Jane Austen is that she wrote such witty love stories, but her own love life never worked out. In fact, the first man she ever fell in love with would have lost his inheritance if he’d married her. She was too far down the social ladder. His aunt whisked him out of the country to get him away from her.”

  “Huh.”

  The woman with the large order finally finished and the line moved forward.

  “It could have been a plot for one of her novels,” I said. “Although if she’d written it, I think it would have had a different ending. It’s not like he came back for her.”

  “Too bad,” he said.

  Nibbling on my bottom lip, I brushed a tendril of hair away from my face. I was so out of practice at this. Jessica caught my eye and gave me a thumbs-up. I winced and shrugged. What was I supposed to say now?

  The cute guy got to the front of the line and put in his order. He gave me a small closed-mouth smile as he walked over to the other side of the counter to wait for his coffee.

  “What can I get you?” the barista asked.

  “Sixteen-ounce latte,” I said.

  “A name for your order?”

  “Ivy,” I said. She paused, blinking at me, her Sharpie poised over the cup. People were forever asking me to repeat my name. “Ivy, like the plant.”

  She nodded and wrote it on the cup. I paid and glanced at the cute guy, but he was looking at his phone, so I went straight to Jessica’s table.

  “What was that about?” she asked.

  I pulled out the chair and sat across from her. “What?”

  “Why didn’t you keep talking to him?” she asked. “He’s cute.”

  “I don’t know,” I said. “As soon as I opened my mouth, he looked bored.”

  “Who did you quote?”

  “What are you talking about? I didn’t—” I sighed. “Jane Austen.”

  “Of course you did.” She patted my hand. “Maybe next time don’t lead with dead novelists.”

  I crossed my legs. “I’m terrible at this. I belong in a world with strict social norms where it’s expected you’ll settle for a husband based on your family’s status.”

  “Except in that world, you’re already an old maid,” she said.

  I scowled at her.

  She started to speak, but paused, her eyes focused on something to my left. “Wow. Hello, gorgeous.”

  I glanced over my shoulder. A man stood a few steps inside the door. He was indeed gorgeous. Thick, dark hair. Exquisite bone structure, his strong jaw covered in stubble. He was dressed in a blue waffle-knit shirt and jeans—casual, but he wore it well. He was obviously lean and muscular—you could tell even through his clothes.

  But his eyes. They swept across the room, like he was looking for someone, and for a second, they settled on me. Bright blue, they stood out in stark contrast to his dark hair and rough jaw. They looked… innocent, somehow. Almost strange in that face that was so rugged and masculine.

  I blinked and tore my gaze away, hoping he hadn’t seen me looking at him. Jessica gaped, her lips parted.

  “Jess, you’re married,” I said. “Stop ogling him.”

  She startled, like she hadn’t realized what she was doing. “What? Oh, come on, I’m just enjoying the view. I’m married, not dead. Besides, no one could possibly be immune to whatever magic that guy has.”

  I glanced at him again. He was probably the most beautiful man I’d ever seen in person. The kind of guy you see on billboards or in magazines—and you assume must be photoshopped in a hundred different ways, because no one actually looks that good.

  This guy did.

  Jessica started talking again and I watched the man from the corner of my eye. He took slow steps into the shop, looking carefully at everything. The way he moved reminded me of a detective in a movie—not the serious one with the gravelly voice and a drinking problem. The quirky one—the genius who no one really understands, but always seems to discover what no one else can see.

  He stood back from the counter, studying the menu like he’d never seen one before. His brow furrowed, making a groove between his dark eyebrows. Two women came in and hesitated behind him. One said something, and he looked at her like he was confused that someone was speaking to him. But his expression quickly softened, and he smiled—a gesture that made him even more attractive—and waved them by.

  “Ivy?” Jessica said.

  I shook my head a tiny bit and turned to Jessica. “Sorry, I was… thinking about something else.”

  “Thinking about Mr. Amazing over there,” she said.

  “No.”

  “Go talk to him,” she said.

  I rolled my eyes. “No, thanks.”

  “Why not?”

  “What am I supposed to say?”

  She shrugged. “Hi, my name is Ivy. Would you like to have coffee with me?”

  “That’s so…”

  “What? Direct? Honest? Effective?” she asked.

  I shook my head. She might have been right, but I wasn’t about to walk up to a man—especially a man who looked like that—and start a conversation.

  “Ivy,” the barista called.

  I went to the counter to get my coffee and I could feel the man watching me. My back prickled and the hairs on my arms stood up like I had goosebumps. Why was he staring at me like that? Beautiful or not, he was starting to make me uncomfortable. I glanced away as I went back to my seat.

  When I sat down, Jessica’s smile was so sympathetic it bordered on pity. “I’m only bugging you about this because I want to see you happy. I know it’s been tough since… well, you know.”

  “It’s okay, you know we can talk about my dad without dancing around the subject.”

  After a grueling two-year battle with cancer, and a stroke near the end, my dad had passed away almost a year ago. Although I was coping with the grief of losing him, I was having a hard time restarting my life. When he was first diagnosed, I’d dro
pped everything to take care of him. Quit my job. Gave up my apartment. Moved home.

  I had no regrets. I was grateful I’d had the time with him, even when it had been hard. But now I was ready to move forward with my life again. I just couldn’t seem to figure out how. Thanks to recommendations from Jess and Peter, I’d landed a teaching position at Woodward, so at least I had that. And I loved my job. But to say my personal life was lackluster was a vast understatement.

  “I’m glad you’re doing better,” she said. “You seem like you’re adjusting. But I’d love to see you get out there more. You can’t spend all your time with your dog, or doing word puzzles.”

  “I don’t.”

  She arched an eyebrow.

  “I hang out with you guys.”

  “And we love you, but wouldn’t a date be nice?” she asked. “What about that guy you met who keeps hinting?”

  Mr. Amazing had circled around us, and although I couldn’t see him, I was sure he was behind me. It was like he was magnetic. The urge to turn and look was almost more than I could resist.

  I was distracted again. I brought my attention back to Jessica. “Blake, the guy who works at Dorset Financial? I don’t think he’s been hinting anything.”

  “Sure he has,” she said. “Based on what you told me, he’s definitely interested. You just turned off your radar for too long, you don’t recognize it.”

  “I don’t know. Even if he was hinting, he’s so… banker-ish.”

  “You mean so much like Julian,” she said.

  I sighed. I’d been dating Julian when my dad had gotten sick. Although I’d thought we were serious—maybe even forever serious—the strain of me moving ninety minutes away to care for my dad had taken its toll on our relationship. When Julian had gotten a job offer in Boston, he’d decided to take it. Which had meant leaving me behind.